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Life is wat was, wat is and wat will be... never wat shuld hav been, wat could hav been and wat never will be.
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Forget it pple... this blog is dead... now move along...
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Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
But where there are prophecies, they will cease;
where there are tongues, they will be stilled;
where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
When I was a child, I talked like a child,
I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child.
When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror;
then we shall see face to face.
Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love.
But the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:4-13
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Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple
and that God's Spirit lives in you?
If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him;
for God's temple is sacred, and you are that temple
1 Cor 3:16-17
Monday, November 03, 2003
well... yep pple... the rumours are true... the words that keeping flying around and aunties gossiping behind my back... im going to testify... im going to declare.... im not going to hide anymore...im going to stand up in front of everybody and with the courage to say... tat... i..... am closing down this blog... yep .. killed without mercy,,, now why would i wan to destroy such a cool blog? i hav no idea myself... hang around and read the old post if u wan... i have moved.... literally to a new site... and please, dont even attempt to search for it... if u wan just ask and maybe, just maybe i might give u the link... i find it pointless for pple to read my blog, if they are concern enuff know wats going on in my life, they shuld ask me personally and not tru some crap electronic dumb webby or wateva... soo folks... tats it... really...
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
this is going to be a long post...
it seems to be a long time... from the day i stepped into vjc... 10 months had passed... and my workload till now has never change... its still work work and more work... and yet much more waiting to come... why do i write on? i hav no idea... it seems to be a way for escape between just sleeping and working.... school church cca... one is enough to suffocate, 2 more than enough to kill and 3... dun wan to think about it...
Life has turned into another twist... more and more probs.. more and more decision to make... i beed pushing them awae... but i guess its time to resolve them... the question is how? such decision are not meant for 17 year old studs like me... some probs were like those in the TVs... decisions decisions decisions.. going into the unknown... and the unknown scares me....
there are some things which we cant control... i agree... how i wish i could just wish my prob away... how i wish they by screaming out 'go awae' they would go awae... how i hope that by fazing my so ordered life style i would be able to fadez my feelings.... how i wonder why do i even wish or hope for these impossible things...
Life is so full of cross roads... so many decisions to make... so many paths to choose.. so many pros and cons to consider... Glad to hav God as my guide... but wats the use if the guide is but a light hidden under heavy fog? wat use is the guide if i cant see it clearly... some say follow by faith... im still not sure.. is my faith weak? where do i go from here? i need some CLEAR indications... maybe theres a neon sign big and bright above the road that im suppose to go... maybe just tat im so distracted by earthly things that i kept my head down... focus... thats wat im lacking... faith... thats wat i need...
life have been a torture... ever since i found out and discovered somethings that should be remain in doubt... ever since im clear of my feelings, i stop being myself... i hate wearing a face.... i hate hidding and putting up a false pretence... i hate being always happy... as if nuthing would put me down... but now im frustrated... pissed off... by a lot of issues... sometimes i wonder how long can i put up a 'i dun care' attitude when i actually DO care... how i wish i can do wat i preach... to let things go... how i wish tat was even possible...
i think i hid too much... much of my feelings went unsaid... much of them were bottled inside... maybe i might explode and spill it all out... maybe not... but 1 thing for sure... its affecting me... adversely... and much more damage to my heart and soul than i imagine it ever will...
So forget it... im still going to 'act' happy... lucky for me, i dun get bog down by unhappy stuffs for too long... a fews hours or fews weeks at most... maybe... then again.. maybe not...
Monday, October 27, 2003
alrite... heh.... todae quite ok lah.. lots of things happened = mixed feelings... but shal record the happy ones!! YAY... todae pract damn shiok!!! played HOBBITS!! haha.. chao nice... all my high notes are BACK ON FORM!!! finally like after 10 mnths?... hehe... hope now can start to fine tuned them and go for higher ones... haha... then low notes YAY... just 3 more to pedal C... if i can attain that low-ness i can play 4 octaves le!!! THATS FOUR AND ITS A LOT... hehe.... well.. tats it...
Saturday, October 25, 2003
alrite... woke up at 5 this morning.. grr... why so early? cuz must catch early bus go ECP see sun rise... gee...
sooo end up at beach 6:30 im the morning.. and guess wat? huge column of cloud so cant see the sun at all... onli manage to watch the sky turns blue.. bah... ohh well... can always try again some other time... grrr...
had band prac .. quite plain and boring... ok very plain and boring... sianz...
then hav this stupid talk... sooo stupid... rather go sentosa!!! bah.. WAT A WASTE... but ok lah.. morning went beach le.. haha so feeling not soo bad... haiz.... well so tats it....
Friday, October 24, 2003
chao boring now... great opportunity to test my crapping skills again.. haha...
i bet all those pple out there would be wondering 'how in the world does he manage to do all that? all the crapping seems infinite... seems boundless.... how i wish i were half as good as him in crapping...' while.. wish no more! for heres the ultimate guide to crapping
crapping is like wrinting an essay... and yet its also unlike an essay... wat makes it seem like an essay is the organisation of letters and spacing and like dots like this . that makes it look like any normal essay by a 17 yr old stud.. so wats the main difference? the main difference is the contend! the contend pple... in crap, there is no contend at all.. unless u count crap as some cintend.. then yar... else.. forget about planning... as the saying goes, if u fail to plan u plan to fail... crapping is as good as writing a failing essay.... or near there.. so rule number 1... never ever plan ur craps... then u would ask urself 'without planning how can i juice out sooo much crap?' while.. the tip is to keep on writing... wat comes to ur mind u write.. even thou its totally repetitive like this one, just write... let ur mind go blank and let the more prominent images rule ur head and let ur head rule ur fingers which will cuz ur fingers to either dance across paper or flying around a keyboard.. so yar... write... then u would be thinking, 'hey but all ur crap do has some sort of a central topic? Then how did u do it without crapping?' while that derives from the very first rule... as u keep on writing crap... ie essay of null contend.... the more u write, the more words there are on paper or on the computer screen... while just keep on writing.. for a topic will soon emerge fro, all those brainless crap that u hav just written... when u discovered a topic amoing ur crap (which is highly difficult for newbies) then just name it and go along with tat topic and just let ur crap flow once more... and really.. this long passage which u hav been reading from then till now has been done without planning nor brainstorming.. its just a long passage with words 1 by 1 thought out and typed on the sport at the author's home as he feeling totally bored now.. talk abt being bored... 'whos this bo liao guy anyway' you might be wondering... wjile his here to teach abt crapping... haha.. so crap awae! so now u hav the knoledge of crapping... since knowledge is power... u hav the power to crapping!!! may the FORCE be with u... always...
so tats it...
Thursday, October 23, 2003
Chinese Sux!
Well... other than stripping awae our periods of GP and PE.. obviously our teacher thought its just not enough... Thus she transmutated physic practical into chinese lesson also.. thats like having an extra of 6 periods of chinese each week.. in addition of our usual 5 periods... tats makes a total of ELEVEN FREAKING PERIODS OF CHINESE!... Damn it... well on the high note.. tats equivilent to 11 periods of sleep.. haha... but is not always successful.. nearly always get caught.. so stupid... sit first row also can get caught... teacher too effective le... Then somemore got all those chen yu ah.. su yu tests... all tests tests till i teh teh... Still got more homework.. enuff to stack higher than mount everest le.. bah... can fill up the spaces in grand canyon.. got compo, 2 excercise book plus other craps.. gee.. whenever can i finish them siaz? maybe onli when man colonize mars or something.. wah... stupid chinese... stupid Singapore edu system... bah.. (bear with me.. i just wan to rant somewhere).. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... (k tats feel so much better)...
And did i mention chinese sux?
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
alrite... my hands are like shaking now... hehe.... damn weak and shaky... been learning the basic break dance foot steps from qinhong... haha chao tiring... i think i very weak... haha.. need to do more training... but i got quite strong le lor... haha... last time cant do a single pull up now can do 7... more than quite a number of people le... haha... but must still continue to train.. haiz.... shit... shaky hand cant type well... so tats it...
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